February 28, 2010
February 24, 2010
On the bus this morning on my way to work a woman standing down the aisle from me caught my eye – tall, blond hair neatly pulled back in a pony, pencil skirt, good boots, funky swing jacket, fun scarf – she looked great, pulled together, good. “love her style” I thought to myself “would like to look like that”
and that’s when it hit me – I used to BE that girl – put together, chic, well-groomed, fashionable, confident
30 or so pounds and several life-crisis ago, that is
well crap, it’s time to go back to being THAT girl
I have a closet full of fantastic clothes – great jackets, funky skirts, chic pants, cute tops – but all 2 or 3 sizes too small – this must change
Lately I have taken to wearing my lulu pants or jeans to work with a sweater or hoodie and my Chucks. On the one hand, SO LUCKY I can dress like that at the office. On the other, it has allowed me to become lazy and complacent and not make any effort in getting dressed in the morning. I have become LAZY. And COMPLACENT. My mother would most definitely not approve.
I mean who cares, right? No one is going to see me, what does it matter?
Oh, it matters. Believe me, IT MATTERS! I need to make that effort again, care about what I put on before heading out the door. Be the girl people look at and say “wow, she looks GREAT! what style!” I was that girl and will be again. Soon. I figure by the end of April I can get my act together, drop 2 sizes and be right back in my kicky skirts and flirty tops, feeling good about being ME.
Show the world the best version of me and then the sky’s the limit – there will be no stopping what this girl can do!
will keep you posted . . .
*the fact that the episode of Beauty Call that I filmed a few months ago wherein they (and Whitney Port!) called me FAT (I am a size 12 to 14) in at least 18 different ways on national television has NOTHING to do with this!
October 28, 2009
So am freshly back from taping the second half, the “reveal” portion of my episode of Beauty Call – and FUN! I was actually more nervous about this portion, oddly enough, than I was about the part where I had to be on camera in my underwear. Because what if it doesn’t fit? Um, hi, BODY ISSUES!!!
At least I know naked fits …
Can you imagine if I got there and NOTHING they bought fit me? And they were all like “She is so fat how can we be expected to dress THAT??!!”
Well that of course did not happen, though the first dress didn’t fit – same old story, didn’t zip up across the boobs. Ladies, if you think you want big boobs? Trust me, you do not.
And it fit, the second outfit did anyway which is kinda good because I really didn’t like the shoes that they got for the first outfit and the bag that came with this one? TO. DIE.
Love the dress, the shoes are amazing, the bag is wonderful and a funky bangle just for fun. I am totally impressed that they were able to outfit me without even having met me and for it to have worked so well. Really, really well.
I don’t know if I can say too much about it, though they didn’t tell me I had to keep it a secret or anything. The same camera and production crew were there and the lovely make-up artiste as well, thank GOD. really? I want her to come home with me and “do” my face every day. LOVE!
It was kind of an odd experience, though a positive one. I will be very interested to see it all together when the episode airs. I didn’t have a lot of interaction with the 2 hosts of the show, though I think when it airs it will look as though we did, I think. Having all of those cameras on me was VERY unnerving and I hope it turns out ok, and that I smiled enough and kept my tummy tucked in enough and stood up straight enough and all that.
Definitively OUT of my comfort zone and that was a goal. Also? the bag , the bag THE BAG!!!
I will let you all know when it airs (and maybe post a photo of the outfit)